Can understand how u feel tho. I think its a symptom of every generation. I was lucky to be 'old enough' in the late eighties and have friends that introduced me to 'House'. Plus I had left home by then - so I also could go out all night without getting into trouble with the folks...
I often think 'what if I'd done even more back then?'. I'd have loved to have gone to the Hac in 87/88, or what if I'd gone to Shelly's when Sasha had just started playing there? I curse sometimes the fact i'd missed a tune at the time and nowadays it sells for huge $$$ or wonder that if I'd given a different demotape to a different promoter, then things may be 'different', that I'd not bought more tapes of the nights I'd been too (or not taped over some of those that I did!!).
Even more so I'd love to have been around in America for the really early House scene in '86, or at least been able to receive WBMX!! Better still, Electro in the early 80's or for Disco in the 70's.
I do seriously wish I'd seen Larry Levan and Ron Hardy play live tho. That's something I'd deffo do if I got my hands on a time machine.
Fact is tho m8, we are where we are. I'd not change any of my experiences for toffee, and the same would be said from people who experienced the Hippie, Disco or Punk times. I wouldn't wish your life away. You're doing a lot of what people who drove the house scene in the UK did back then - experiencing 'old skool'. Only difference is that their 'old skool' was Northern Soul, Funk or whatever. That inspired them to push the boundaries further and further and do some amazing things.
You come to Hazydayz. I can say that the last two nights we've done have come scarily close to what it actually was like back then. You're in an enviable position to us 'arl arses'. You can draw on that experience and go out and turn it into sommat new if you want too, just like people of your age did back in '88.
Right, Sirius - book us a room with a view onto the grounds of your retirement home will you, where I hope you've set up a 'fairground' which actually consists of just the waltzers, plus a big top thats knackered and leaks, but proclaims to be the 'biggest and best in Europe' and you've said you've booked fire-eaters, trapeze acts, laser robots and the like when in fact all you've got is a few people who can walk around on stilts for half an hour...
Mart