superdan said:
yeah it was bout 3 days ago
Wow, I cant even imagine how I would have moved out at 16. I was nowhere near ready for such a thing at that age.
. All kudos to you though, for being such a well rounded individual so early......well, you know what I mean
Sometimes I think will die in this town, and that wouldnt be a bad thing (aslong as its of natural causes and not a stabbing or something).....but I suppose the time will come where for my own sanity I need to get out, preferably before I go psycho and start burning buildings down etc. Either that, or through necessity to work somewhere too far to commute if times get hard.
I like it here, despite my whinging, the area is great, and I suppose thats why it irritates me so much as to what will become of it before long. Yes, its pretty poor around here, wages arent brilliant, work is becoming harder to find in my specific field as the last manufacturing companies disintegrate, but around my part of town (at the moment), its pretty neat and tidy, not too busy, not run down and litter filled like towards the town center. Easy to get to work, no major traffic jams etc. The smaller things in life are better that way, and that means more to me than money and status.
Its funny, cos Id say the town is a run down shithole with a traffic ratrun etc, yet, at the sime time, it feels too much like home as Ive lived here all my life, and also doesnt feel like home as it becomes increasingly tranformed into something else.
I think if you find good friends and neighbours, keep yourself busy and live for the future you want, you wouldnt get homesick too much, and maybe one day I will find myself somewhere unexpected, and just remember back to my town here as a memory of what once was.
I do hold attachment to things, like when they pulled the old streetlights out to put up these cheapo ugly replacements, or the time they pulled the bus shelter down and never replaced it, closed the local post offices and the sweet shop, pulled the free public pool down, demolished the park swings, massacred the town center, and I think to the days before that happened, back before the cinema burnt down, when we had a public fountain in the center of town etc....... its sad, but I suppose Im nostalgic that way.
It must be hard to have a happy childhood somewhere you feel is home, then move away, make a new home then 15 -20 years later return back to that place and see it wrecked.
I think I would be homesick, but if I am forced to move for a reason I know will happen one day, I know Id never come back, and Id have to make my new area feel like home.
Sirius.
